Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. -Ambrose Redmoon
(Borrowed this quote from a friend's facebook page this morning.)
I've had a very strange and entirely unexpected situation come up in the past few days. It twisted my brain into all kinds of knots, and involved a part of my past I never expected to resurface in any active sort of way. It also involved an important decision that I had a very hard time making. I can't type details of any of it on here, but it ultimately came down to truth in one hand and fear of what might happen to me if I spoke the truth in the other. Would I let (a very valid) fear stop me from speaking the truth (when asked for my story)? Would I let fear back me into a dark corner and put its big hands over my mouth to silence me?
By the time I got to the amazing Wesley Walker's house for a massage yesterday afternoon, I was in full-blown stress mode. I couldn't see how I would ever recognize the right decision. On my way home from my massage, I had a massive head ache, drank some water, took a nap and woke up clear-headed and knowing exactly what I should do. Speak the truth. The truth is bigger and more important than any fear. Reading the quote above on a friend's facebook page this morning only reaffirmed that decision. Done & done.
