I've been FitBitten.....

....this thing is seriously awesome. I set everything up last night and tracked my sleep. All I have to do is walk near my computer and this little gadget updates my online profile! I woke up 8 times throughout the night....it even shows me the exact times I woke up. Most of them were between 4am and 5:30am. I wonder if this has anything to do with the fact that the rooster has insisted on sleeping on the front porch the last three nights? It only took me 1 min to fall asleep and I got exactly 7 hours and 37 minutes of actual sleep time. I had a 94% sleep efficiency last night! I also had a glass of wine before bed, which may have contributed a little to that efficiency.

I got up and logged the food I ate yesterday and my breakfast in the online profile. I'm realizing my protien/carb/fat ratios are out of whack....and that I don't consume very many calories each day. Odd, since I have kept gaining weight. I've never counted calories before, but I definitely don't feel like I'm denying myself food. Yesterday I had less than 1000 calories and the thing that counted as the most calories was the wine! I guess I'm not eating enough of the foods my body needs. I have heard that if you don't eat enough, your metabolism lowers and your body goes into survival mode and stores everything as fat. I just never realized I was doing that, because I just assumed I was eating a normal amount of calories. I really need to get more protein. I don't like to eat meat. Time to do some research!

Hiked the 3 mile loop this morning. So far today, I have taken exactly 7,570 steps. Above is my hiking photo of the day. Tiny mushrooms all over a mossy stump.

Mas Tacos y No Mas Codependency

Sold my scooter yesterday to a really nice guy who really needs it in the ways I really needed it when I bought it. I hadn't been on it in over a month, I think. I had forgotten how much fun that thing is to drive. We're going to meet this afternoon to exchange money and the scooter, so I got to ride it around all day yesterday. I rode downtown to my P.O. Box to pick up a book my mom mailed me, and then went to Mas Tacos for lunch. Teresa is one of my favorite small business owners in Nashville. I love love her taco truck, but I really love going to her brick & mortar spot, because it feels like a little slice of Tucson to me.

I ordered two quinoa tacos (they have red cabbage on them & are so dang tasty...and much healthier than regular tacos), and sat down to start reading. The book is called Codependent No More by Melody Beattie. Yes, I was riding around on my scooter, eating tacos and reading a self help book. Oy....maybe this is my mid-life crisis arriving a bit early? My mom heard about this book from her hairdresser. She told my mom that this book had changed her life, and I had to read it. I really like the epigraph for the book, so that was a good start....

"It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere."

-Agnes Repplier

I knew I probably needed to be reading this book when, only three pages into the introduction, I wanted to throw the thing across the taco shack and never pick it up again. It is written by a woman who is a recovering alcoholic, and she initially has some very harsh things to say about the partners/codependents. I thought, "What the hell does this lady know? This book is crap!" I made myself keep reading. Then she explains that after being sober for a long time, she somehow ended up in the codependent role and realized how unfair her previous judgements were. I finished reading the introduction and scootered myself over to a yoga class. I can already tell there are going to be parts of this book that really challenge me to acknowledge some things about myself that I don't like, but I'm okay with that. I'm open to that, because I am ready to heal and change and move forward with my life. I don't want to recreate a situation over again in the future, simply because it was too painful or I was afraid to look at the previous one and really understand it.